Friday, February 27, 2009
What is G.R.A.C.E?
God is G.O.OD, all the time! ;)this phrase has been said so many times by Christians that somehow the meaning gets diluted.surely there are people who said this for the sake of saying when on the inside they are questioning.I just came home from leaders' meeting. I can't help but only give thanks to God for the many things that He has done in my life. God did a heart transplant for me, renewed it and strengthen it so much more than i could ask for. I'm so touched by the Lord once more. ((: Thank You, Lord.As this week is coming to an end, my heart is filled with much gratitude. I have been experiencing God's grace these few days including today so much that i can only stand in awe of God. Indeed, God's grace is more than enough. And i thank God that i had such a gracious God, gracious Father like Him.this semester of my school was definitely a challenging one for me. in fact, it's the most difficult one so far in the two years of my poly life. I had my first paper last friday on immunology, a module which i actually quite enjoy (except for the chunk of stuff that i have to memorise. hee). i found it was so difficult for me to answer the questions on the exam paper when every of my friends were saying that the paper was easy. then my first reaction was to turn to God and ask Him, "God, why like that?" i had no peace at all. many bad thoughts just kept coming into me that day after my paper. Pastor Melvyn preached a sermon on "The Gift of Grace" last sunday which totally speaks to me, alot. I encountered some problems in my ministry and yes, that doesnt gave much peace to me. but afer the sermon, i was determined to receive the gift of Grace, i want to have a pure and tender heart for God.i had my CCTA paper on monday. it was a module that i havent been doing well, like JUST pass that kind. i was so afraid and there was no peace in me! but God is good, really. i said a little prayer in my heart before the paper and it totally blew my mind when i saw that God's answering it. He hears my prayer! and this, is, Grace. the paper was considered manageable(compared to my 2common tests) and i really thank God for that. i prayed to God again for fruitful study for my paper that falls on the next day.and yes, i had peace studying that night until my dad came home... everything was turned upside down. my dad and i had a little crash that night. i never felt so accused, never. and yes, i cried. i was so heartbroken and hurt by everything that he said. my heart was filled with bitterness and many past hurts came rushing back to my mind. i needed a hug so much and i miss my big brother so much (cos every time when i cry, he will hug me close to him and let me cry til his shoulder's wet =X). so i turned to God and cried out to Him, "Lord, i dont want a hardened heart! Help me to love, to love my father even more!" i told God, "God, i take this as a test that is from You, for You to know if my cry for a tender and pure heart is true or just words..." i was reminded of Psalm 51 where David asked God for a "broken and contrite heart" and i prayed to God for it. i also re-surrendered my studies and my ministry to God. i felt good after the prayer and continued studying which so happened that i fell asleep =X i didnt finish studying for my tuesday paper! and it's really ALOT that kind. plus, i actually failed my common test? ahhh, i got panicked when i realised that it was around 5am when i suddenly woke up that morning. i quickly flipped through the lecture notes hoping that i can some what finish studying for my 9am paper. i prayed earnestly to God when i was on my way to school for that paper so much so that i kept repeating myself, just in case God didnt hear. But God heard it. Just before my paper, i received encouraging messages one which says having a victorious, strong and positive mindset as we face daily challenges. I knew these weren't coincidental. It's God. so i prayed to God and told Him that i want to conquer this paper with the spirit of God! i want to have confidence in Him!And all was good ((: Thank God! (: As i mediated on God's goodness and the sermon on sun, God showed me 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."then i began to asked myself? "What is Grace?"for many who knows, grace = God's Richest At Christ Expend. and that's an Amen! but for me personally after this week of God's GRACE, all i can say is, Grace is God, who is Strong that when i am weak, I can be strong in Him and Him alone. All glory to God.So what is GRACE to you?
And today, at leaders' meeting, I am truly blessed once again as a leader. Just ytd, my prayer for my ministry was answered and my prayer in loving my dad more, today. God is good, isn't He? My heart was melted. who am i that i am worthy of God's attention? i was totally lost for words and all i could tell God was "Thank You". when Pastor YC asked us to pray to God to reveal our hearts' condition, i just heard God saying to me, "take heart, daughter!. You need to have the courage to love, to love your dad and I want to give it to you." i was utterly broken.today's meeting was definitely a refreshing session for me and for many others i believe. "my heart is captivated by You O God.melted by the Grace You have shown."Thank You, Father in Heaven ((:
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