ha! i just came home from fee's hall production! it was definitely enjoyable and FUNNY! my goodness! HAHAHAs. the actors and the actressors are talented, some vocally and others in acting ((: isn't God's creation wonderful? He made each and everyone GOOD in some ways! i wonder how much time did God actually spent in writing about us in His book! i bet it's LONG! cos He has got so many things that He wants to give to us! WOW huh?! but again, God also made us such a way that we need to work as a TEAM that everyone, YOU, ME and US have to. and together, we can bring glory to God! for God says in the bible in 1 corinthians 12:21-26::
"21The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it."
and i believe that this is a key to fee's production's success. ((:
i had a eventful day today. went tutoring in the morning and then flag day at jurong east. God is really really really very very interesting! HAHAs. He never let go of any moments which He can use to teach me. while i was walking up and down asking for donations, there's this indian old who was physically dirty and weak, unable to walk. he saw me from a distance, hand-signalling for me to go to him so that he could do a small token of donation. my heart was filled compassion as i see a man like him, so needy yet so giving. and i said God, "Lord, bless this man as he gives!" so i ran towards him and stretched out the tin towards him. he was slow in his action as he tried to reach out to the pocket on his left chest. and as i stood there stretching out that donation tin.. MANY eyes just like suddenly LOOK at me? worst still, there's this uncle who's beside the old man who said many nasty things to me. the more he said, the more my heart felts so pierced. then i began to question God, "Father, am i doing the right thing? should i just walked away?" but somehow i knew that the old man wanted to GIVE very much even though he's in need. so i made a decision to just wait for him while the nasty things just kept coming.
finally, "dop" there goes the coin and i offered the old man a sticker. and very quickly, i ran back to my bag area where i reached out for my wallet and quickly ran back to the uncle, blessed him and hugged him. well, i am not here to boast about what i did but what God showed to me. you will find out soon (:
i continued walking up and down and around the interchange asking for donations. but guess what? when i returned to the place near where the old man was, the uncle who made nasty remarks came forth and DROPPED COINS INTO MY TIN saying, "其实我不是很想捐钱的。我自己也没有工作。但是我看你刚才对那个uncle那样。。 哎呀。。" and then he went off. wah i tell you, i seriously couldnt take it. my eyes went teary and ya.. took a break and reflected on what had happened. my mind was totally BLANK. i took out my bible but there wasnt a single verse in my mind. so i turned to God and asked Him, "God, what is it that You want to show me today?" my pierced heart is so healed.
and i came home reflecting, and i God just reminded me of 2 things mentioned in the bible: 1. the two blind men who cried out to Jesus when they heard that He was coming: [Matthew 20:29-30,34] 29As Jesus and his disciples were leaving Jericho, a large crowd followed him. 30Two blind men were sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was going by, they shouted, "Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!" 34Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him. 2. a verse in the bible which says God using the weak to shame the strong: [1 Corinthians 1:27] But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong
and now i just happened to came across this verse in Romans which says: "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express."
and i was like stunned. this verse is so true isnt it? i didnt know what i could pray and ask from God when i was reflecting in the afternoon what happened. but now, i can picture it so clearly. i remembered Ps YC led us into a time of praying and thanksgiving that we are able to stand in place of Jesus to bless those people out there. and so interestingly, it happened to me the next day(which is today). i'm like.. oh my gosh. God, You are so interested in me, arent You?!
i am totally in awe and felt so honored to be able to stand in place of Jesus to bless that old man. the uncle who said nasty things was like the 'strong man' mentioned in the bible and of course, the weak resembles the old indian man (: but i believe that the uncle's heart was blessed in a way or two. even if i don't know, i know that God knows. He knows it all well. ((:
i am really thankful that i am able to bless in place of Jesus and to know that He is interested in me! ((: ((: but definitely, i'm not the only one. God is interested in you too! :D so what are you waiting for? MAI TU LIAO! (dont wait anymore!) starting taking authority in Jesus' name to bless! :D
Thank You, Father In Heaven ((: All Glory to You. Amen.
Thank You, Lord. ((:
Friday, February 27, 2009
What is G.R.A.C.E?
God is G.O.OD, all the time! ;) this phrase has been said so many times by Christians that somehow the meaning gets diluted. surely there are people who said this for the sake of saying when on the inside they are questioning.
I just came home from leaders' meeting. I can't help but only give thanks to God for the many things that He has done in my life. God did a heart transplant for me, renewed it and strengthen it so much more than i could ask for. I'm so touched by the Lord once more. ((: Thank You, Lord.
As this week is coming to an end, my heart is filled with much gratitude. I have been experiencing God's grace these few days including today so much that i can only stand in awe of God. Indeed, God's grace is more than enough. And i thank God that i had such a gracious God, gracious Father like Him.
this semester of my school was definitely a challenging one for me. in fact, it's the most difficult one so far in the two years of my poly life. I had my first paper last friday on immunology, a module which i actually quite enjoy (except for the chunk of stuff that i have to memorise. hee). i found it was so difficult for me to answer the questions on the exam paper when every of my friends were saying that the paper was easy. then my first reaction was to turn to God and ask Him, "God, why like that?" i had no peace at all. many bad thoughts just kept coming into me that day after my paper.
Pastor Melvyn preached a sermon on "The Gift of Grace" last sunday which totally speaks to me, alot. I encountered some problems in my ministry and yes, that doesnt gave much peace to me. but afer the sermon, i was determined to receive the gift of Grace, i want to have a pure and tender heart for God.
i had my CCTA paper on monday. it was a module that i havent been doing well, like JUST pass that kind. i was so afraid and there was no peace in me! but God is good, really. i said a little prayer in my heart before the paper and it totally blew my mind when i saw that God's answering it. He hears my prayer! and this, is, Grace. the paper was considered manageable(compared to my 2common tests) and i really thank God for that. i prayed to God again for fruitful study for my paper that falls on the next day.
and yes, i had peace studying that night until my dad came home... everything was turned upside down. my dad and i had a little crash that night. i never felt so accused, never. and yes, i cried. i was so heartbroken and hurt by everything that he said. my heart was filled with bitterness and many past hurts came rushing back to my mind. i needed a hug so much and i miss my big brother so much (cos every time when i cry, he will hug me close to him and let me cry til his shoulder's wet =X). so i turned to God and cried out to Him, "Lord, i dont want a hardened heart! Help me to love, to love my father even more!" i told God, "God, i take this as a test that is from You, for You to know if my cry for a tender and pure heart is true or just words..." i was reminded of Psalm 51 where David asked God for a "broken and contrite heart" and i prayed to God for it. i also re-surrendered my studies and my ministry to God.
i felt good after the prayer and continued studying which so happened that i fell asleep =X i didnt finish studying for my tuesday paper! and it's really ALOT that kind. plus, i actually failed my common test? ahhh, i got panicked when i realised that it was around 5am when i suddenly woke up that morning. i quickly flipped through the lecture notes hoping that i can some what finish studying for my 9am paper. i prayed earnestly to God when i was on my way to school for that paper so much so that i kept repeating myself, just in case God didnt hear.But God heard it. Just before my paper, i received encouraging messages one which says having a victorious, strong and positive mindset as we face daily challenges. I knew these weren't coincidental. It's God. so i prayed to God and told Him that i want to conquer this paper with the spirit of God! i want to have confidence in Him!
And all was good ((: Thank God! (:
As i mediated on God's goodness and the sermon on sun, God showed me 2 Corinthians 12:9-10: "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
then i began to asked myself? "What is Grace?" for many who knows, grace = God's Richest At Christ Expend. and that's an Amen! but for me personally after this week of God's GRACE, all i can say is, Grace is God, who is Strong that when i am weak, I can be strong in Him and Him alone.All glory to God.
So what is GRACE to you?
And today, at leaders' meeting, I am truly blessed once again as a leader. Just ytd, my prayer for my ministry was answered and my prayer in loving my dad more, today. God is good, isn't He? My heart was melted. who am i that i am worthy of God's attention? i was totally lost for words and all i could tell God was "Thank You". when Pastor YC asked us to pray to God to reveal our hearts' condition, i just heard God saying to me, "take heart, daughter!. You need to have the courage to love, to love your dad and I want to give it to you." i was utterly broken.
today's meeting was definitely a refreshing session for me and for many others i believe.
"my heart is captivated by You O God. melted by the Grace You have shown."
Thank You, Father in Heaven ((:
Monday, February 23, 2009
I AM FEELING SORETARDED! ~~ *scream!*
Thursday, February 19, 2009
TADA! HAHAHAs. ehhhh.. i just chance upon these photos when i received photos tagged by joanne on facebook! since i'm starting to feel bored after doing a bit of plant report, i shall post! =X ^^ theses photos are taken way back last year on danzation when many of us had usher duties ((: thinking back the danzation is NICE lars! alemaks! i havent go for my dance class yet. OPPS =X wahahahas! will be going soon i guess! =D
Sunday, February 15, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
lols! okiies! i'm here to post those photos taken on my birthday, last saturday and sunday! WAHAHAHAs.
thanks xuan and friends who helped me celebrated my birthday in school! :D thanks ZHENYING AND RUONING for taking time out and celebrate b'day with me! :D LOVE YOU BOTH MANY-S! :D ^^ thanks EVEYONE for the gifts! :D thanks liling sis for all the photos! love you!! ((:
oh yes! i super like this pic! :P i put all the random pics together using photoshop and BOOM! THERE! :
next up will be my HAMSTERS!:P they are SO SO adorable! ehhh.. the grandma named the white hamster as fishball so my cousins and i decided to call the other meatball :X LOLs! enjoy!
Saturday, February 07, 2009
just a photo to post! =D
cheryl! jessica loves you many many! =D
Friday, February 06, 2009
CNY house visiting! =D
yeps! am here to update you people on the CNY house visiting! =D hee ((: went for house visiting last saturday, 31 jan, together as a combined EJA cell ((: first station was wayne's house which is sadly to say, i didnt went there as i had to go bai nian with my family in the morning after which i met them at cyndi and vivien's house for lunch ((: took quite or in fact many photos there though! =X ^^ :D hee. their mum is nice and i guess everyone had a nice meal there! ;) 3rd house will be Ps YC's house then cherie and lastly, cheryl's house at tampines for dinner ((: yes, from west and all the east! wahahahas. didnt went to cheryl house either as i have to rush down to ruoning's place. promised that i will go ((:
and the best thing is, i managed to eat with the mum! hahas. ruoning's mum is and has always been very nice towards me. whenever i go to her place, ruoning's mum never fail to cook nice dishes for me and she will keep telling me, "eat more eat more.." hahas. i am so blessed by her! ((: thank God for her. ruoning, you have a nice mum, a wonderful family! ;)
Monday, January 26, 2009
MASS uodate! =X
hello! :D hahahas.
first thing first..
HAPPY and PROPSPEROUS CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! :D
well, it's gonna be a mass update once again! =X hahahas. so sorry! =X let's start with the recently happened to the early early one ^^ went to church for morning service ytd after which i went out with BEN, bobby, jasper, frans, wayne, JJ, and henzy for lunch at airport and then to ikea cos ben was looking for some stuff ((: took many random pics in church as well as on the train on our way home! COOL mann! :D
2nd thing will be saturday's combine cell reunion lunch! =D LOVE IT! :D hee. a few of us were grouped together to prepare a dish to bring for the gathering. yes, it's pot luck! HAHAHA. i tag-team with huiyu, sijia and bobby! but it ended up only with bob and i cos sijia and huiyu had to anchor the 144 cell meeting. so no choice. =/ but anyways! it was a fun experience! wahahahas. bob and i made mashed potatoes. met up with him and wayne to buy the stuff needed on friday. BUT INTERESTINGLY, we bought the wrong potatoes! =O X\ only knew it after bob had reached home and told by his mum. HAHAs. woke up at 6am the next day and met up with bobby early in the morning to get the CORRECT potatoes nearby his house. and yes, we got it RIGHT thing time! LOLs. after that i went to his house to prepare the food lors. hee ((: bob's mummy is so nice (: she bought breakfast for us and helped us out quite a bit ((: sadly! i didnt take photos of us preparing the mashed potatoes. =X but yer lars. gathering there got quite a bit ((: HOHOHOs. enjoy! :D
was looking through the photos i have in my hard disk and i realised that there are quite a few things which i have yet to update you guys with! =X opps. hee. but anyways, since i am free now.. i shall update a bit. ((: hee. went to some agrotech parks in Singapore for one of my agrotech pract! get to see how vegetables are being grown in greenhouses in Singapore and some animal farms like goat and chicken farms ((: had many many fun and took many many photos! :D hee. :D enjoy the photos! ((:
last update will be my agro+plant+ccta+immuno pract lessons! =X took quite a number bit of pics :D the last few are taken just last friday when i had my ccta bioreactor presentation. it's so cool mann! HAHAHA. thank God for my project mates. they're wonderful people! okiies! enjoy thephotos! =D
Sunday, January 04, 2009
had our first combined service today! :D took a group photo. isn't it wonderful?! :D
JESSICA! ((: is EIGHTEEN borns on 04Feb1990
studying in ngee ann poly/ mbio
her family! grandpa, grandma, father, mother, my two brothers&my sis-in-law! :D
her church family!
her two girls-cherie and waiyin!
her two beloved friends- ZHENYING&RUONING
green apples, bananas, lemons
green, grey, white, navy blue
catus,white lilies, white tunips
LOVES HOLIDAYS, LOVE TO *SMILE* :D
1. 12 disciple-makers 2.jacket 3. watch 4. backpack 5. room 5. wallet
6. GPA 4!
7. get into NUS science faculty
8. do splitting
9. learn street jazz! 10. new phone
2 March - start of attachment ):
5 March - Seniors' D&D
6 March - Zhenying's Birthday! :D
7 March - TYA!!! :D :D
10-11 March - Trial Camp
12-14 March - G12 Conference! :D
20 March - Youth Leaders' Meeting
21 March - TYA!!! :D :D
27 March - Meet the 144s
27-29 March - Youthnet 144 re-encounter
28 March - TYA!!! :D :D